July 29, 2014-- Tuesday

The hour is nearing dinnertime when the phone rings. This is it! This is the call I’ve been waiting for…. The answer is near. As I address the caller I brace myself for the outcome. I take a deep breath and steady my voice with a cheerful tone.

“ We had five very good applicants,” he said. “ Each of them we felt confident could do the job. I’m sorry to tell you that we’ve given the job to another, one who has recent experience in working in the Resource Room. That recent experience was the only deciding factor between all the applicants…Don’t be discouraged…I’m sure something else will come up.” I graciously thanked the caller and hung up the phone.

My heart just ached! I felt such a great disappointment. All I could do was cry! I’ve waited eight years for an opportunity like this. After applying to 3 different jobs this year to work in an elementary school, not getting any of those positions, my hopes were crushed!

I was feeling that I might never get another opportunity to work in a grade school again. After wallowing in my sorrow awhile, I texted my family to share the news.

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

Tanner was the first to respond. ”I’m sorryL ! I guess Heavenly Father has different plans for you.” I agreed and added, “I just wish I had a sneak peek at those plans.” then self-chastening I continued, “I know… I gotta walk by faith!” Rachelle quickly responded expressing the sorrow she felt for me and tried to encourage me with these words, “have faith! Maybe you will, but Heavenly Father is saying not just yet.” I mentioned to her as well my wish at a peek of God’s plan for me. It would sure help with the patience side of this. She agreed. “But we are learning that if we don’t practice patience, He just delays what we seek that much longer. At least that seems to be the case for Carlos and I.” I told her that I had found that to be true in my life as well. I expressed that I couldn’t help but wish I knew at least His timetable though. I find I do alright being patient when I have some idea how long I might need to wait for a desired outcome. I don’t do as well when it seems a never-ending wait. I felt like 8 years of waiting for this opportunity was surely long enough! However my time is not the Lord’s time. I need to remember this quote by Neal A. Maxwell: “Faith in God includes faith in His timing.” It’s still HARD!

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　
Rachelle explained that that quote is what got her through years of infertility. She understood how hard it is.

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

Through our discussion Rachelle recognized similarities in her life to that of ours, her parents. I agreed that her life does parallel my experiences. All we can do is to put our trust in the Lord. Remember that He knows and sees the big picture of our lives. He knows what is best and needed in our lives. We have to trust He’ll make those things happen for us that will help us become who we are meant to be! He knows our potential and what we need to experience to reach that potential. He loves us and wants to bless us. Sometimes those blessing are not the same as the ones we are wanting for our lives. We must trust Him and have faith in Him. All will work to our good. We can turn to Him for comfort, peace and understanding. He promises to comfort and cheer our hearts. So with that reassurance of testimony, I prayed for comfort and understanding. He offered me comfort, peace and the hope needed to press forward.